Give it some heart


Life is too crazy to put into words. I know one thing is for sure, we need so much more heart. Others, first. Self, last. But be careful, many will take advantage of that. I am thankful for our country and all it has to offer. We had many voters this year, I hope that will be true four years from now. Please research your politicians before making a decision. It matters what we think in America and we want to keep it that way. We need both parties to keep each other in check. I have considered myself Republican for many years, but more so every year I want to see their hearts before I make my decision clear.

Raising someone else's child

It has been one year since this little man was born. He was born at 32 weeks weighing 3lbs 14oz. We have had him in our home since January 5, 2008. We have temporary custody until ????? I will continue to love, bathe, feed, change diapers, and teach. I do not know what the end will hold, but I hope someday he will be a secure and thriving young man in this world. I am so thankful for my children and their amazing hearts to accept this little man.

Democrat or Republican?

Over the past 10 years, I have spent a good amount of time wishing I hadn't made certain choices. However, recent events have helped me to take a more light hearted approach. My husband and I were both previously married. We did not have children with our previous spouses. We knew the day would come when we would need to explain this to them. However, we were waiting for our son, who is 10, to get a little older. Why? Because, he is so tender hearted we both felt it would bother him. We decided it would be better to wait till he was a teenager. Not a smart move. Jay, through a series of comments made by someone with a lack of filter, found out that his dad and mom(myself and danny) were previously married. He was crushed as suspected. After explaining the situation and lots of hugs going around, Jay decided to hang out with his dad in the garage. The girls and I decided to hang out in the house. So, Jay is in the garage with his dad. Jay says, "Dad, can I ask you a question?" Danny said, "Sure". Thinking to himself, oh boy here it comes. Jay's question, "Is she republican or democrat?"

A classic we will never forget. Our son is a classic and his heart is beyond any I have seen. I am forever grateful for the learning opportunities I receive daily from my three children.

Waiting.......

Waiting ..........Waiting for the clothes to dry, waiting at the doctor's office, waiting to see if my nephew's mom is going to get things together to take care of him, waiting to see how LOST will end. It is waiting that I have not been good at, but learning to embrace. There are so many times in my life where I should have waited. Instead, I would act on emotions. I am learning that God wants me to wait on Him, let Him lead the way. So may I enjoy the wait and move when He wants me to move.

Note to self 20 years ago....

Break up with your boyfriend..........you don't need a boy/man there are other ways to fix that...move with your mom.......find Jesus.....study hard and travel as often as you can....do not i repeat do not move to Florida, if you do stay away from that bartender...if a guy plays hard to get, don't get him there is a reason he is playing that way...focus on developing your brain not your breasts they never really develop, you will be glad when you figure out how gravity works. If you think you know what hard work is, go work on a farm for a year. Quit trying to please people.....

Child Protective Services should be called Parent Protective Services

I have decided to right my frustrations on this blog over Child Protective Services. I feel that there is a serious error, loop hole, or major link missing in our system. About a month ago, a 3 year old girl, who spent only 8 months out of her life with her mother, was killed by her mother's boyfriend. How is a girl returned to an environment that is proven to be dangerous? Please understand, I am not attacking those that work for Child Protective Services, only the laws that surround the system. I don't understand how a mother can have 3 other children taken from her and go to the hospital have another child and have no one to watch after that child. What is going on in the system that we cannot have something set up to watch for this? I know the laws are there to protect those that are good parents so that people cannot falsely accuse, but those that have nothing to hide will be able to prove they have nothing to hide. Those that do have something to hide will hide.....is it that we have no laws set up correctly or that our funding goes to support those that do nothing to improve the quality of their children's lives?!

Kayaking

Kayaking is freedom to me. Freedom from the pressures of the world. Freedom to be alone with God. I cannot wait to buy a kayak and find places to kayak. I hope when my kids are older that we can kayak together. One day to kayak with orcas, how awesome that would be. I love the word. It seems to be the only word I can type and in the middle of winter, I dream of this word becoming a reality for me. I do not have incredible places to tell where I have kayaked, but someday..........